Marli Fishlips

Drifting...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 02:46:39 -0500

I know i have been gone for awhile without posting or keeping Y’all updated and i constantly get emails making sure im still alive. I’M here!.

The last few months have been my hardest…

Ive gone really down hill from cutting every night again to cheating on the love of my life. I’ve lost who I am and I feel as if its tearing my relationship apart. Its so hard for me to open up anymore and talk to him about thing nether the less talk to anyone. I’m so scared i’m going to lose the ones i love. Two nights ago Jon and I broke up it might have only lasted about an hour or so but its like in that hour i was ready to kill myself or go back to being a “adultfilmstar”

I hate the feeling that i cant talk to Jon or my family about anything there are nights where i dont know how long my relationship with my boyfriend is going to last or if i even know if i wanna stay with him… right now i feel like digging the blade deep in my arm and dying.

STAY STRONG<3

bye

New Scars..

Tue, 06 Nov 2012 04:13:13 -0500

I’ve been very hesitant to letting Jon see me… A few days ago I was taken to “the house” they tied me up and they did what they wanted and when they were done I got what I deserved a whip to the back multiple times and if i made a noise or even tried to scream it was a kick in the stomach or punch in the face. I’m pretty bruised and cut up but I wasn’t going to tell him that, I acted as if everything was fine even though on the inside I was crying and wanting to scream.

They told me if I went back to hooking that this would all stop and at the time I actually considered it…. but i will never go back to that. I guess iI will just have to live with the occasional beatings fuck i’m used to it.

Sorry this is so fucking dark..

STAY STRONG<3

FUCK YOU.

Thu, 18 Oct 2012 03:07:28 -0400

Okay. This is more of a rant than a story. In high school my (now ex) boyfriend and I made a sex tape. Well we got into a stupid fight last night and he is threatening to put it out there. I know everyone say “well if your face isn’t in then don’t worry” Well it is and I’m terrified of him putting it out there.

HELP!?!?

alexwithathree: i dont know why but… this really freaks me out…...

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 01:36:56 -0400

alexwithathree:

i dont know why but… this really freaks me out… i dont like it…

LAWL

This is Aubrey and how she talk’s her speech is behind and...

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 01:19:00 -0400

This is Aubrey and how she talk’s her speech is behind and she is going to a speech therapist for it. The girl calling herself “mommy” is Jessica she is Aubrey and Kyle’s Step-Mom. Aubrey refers to us both as mommy and i understands why she does it and to me its not a big deal. This Video is from Jessicas channel where she uploads vlogs about her two boys Kyson and Kaden. Aubrey is Called Lilly or lilibutt since the hawaiian translate to her name is lilly flower. Her speech level is the same as a 27 month old or 2year 3month old. “mimi and Popi” are her grandparents or her dads parents thats what she calls them.

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Wed, 26 Sep 2012 07:26:51 -0400

Really How Am I An Attention Whore?

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 07:24:57 -0400

I got an email this morning from a person who said i need to just shut down my blog that im too much of an “attention Whore” well i dont blog for people to feel bad for me i do it so people can read about what ive been through and for people to understand that my life hasnt always been easy and im NOT perfect.

Im sorry my blogs are so downer i will be posting more happy upbeat blogs soon and maybe for my friends back in north carolina there will be so new in the next 3-5 months MAYBE.

TO ALL THOS STUPID HATERS

I DONT GIVE 2 FUCKS WHAT YOU THINK OF ME PLEASE FUCKING FALL OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH

<3 Love<3

Marleana Victoria Phillips for those who have been asking what my middle name is there you go its Victoria and i hate it i used to go by Vic in school but then i started dislike it and started saying i have no middle name thats my reason for hiding it Kay Byyyye<3

STAY STRONG<3

Question.

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 05:43:39 -0400

A: “When will you be having more babies????? All your children are so adorbzzz”

Q: Haha i don’t know yet but when the time is right Maybe in a Year or so :P

This song is one of my more powerful ones its very meaningful to...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 05:00:00 -0400

This song is one of my more powerful ones its very meaningful to me i really hope you like it

Question.

Tue, 21 Aug 2012 00:00:17 -0400

Q: Do you have a job?

A: Yes, I got hired as a receptionist at Round Rock High School

Question...

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 07:54:00 -0400

Q: #1Do you miss your “baby daddy”?, #2Would you ever get back with him?

A:#1Honestly as a boyfriend no. As a best friend a little bit. We have been getting along a lot better lately and it makes me miss him more. I cant see myself with him ever again but every once and awhile I miss being able to just talk to him about anything. He gave me a hug when he gave me my kids for the week and it actually made me cry… #2 um. i don’t know if i wasn’t in a relationship with someone I love to death then i might think about it for my kids sake but I am with someone who makes me happy and I can see myself with him forever. If he didn’t put me through all the bullshit he put me through and I was single then i might consider getting back with him but after everything no probably not.

rbeez: why is this a thing?

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 23:33:37 -0400

rbeez:

why is this a thing?

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Sat, 18 Aug 2012 23:29:23 -0400

I love this song <3

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 23:15:38 -0400

I love this song <3

Cant sleep Someone message me! older picture /:

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 03:31:36 -0400

Cant sleep Someone message me!

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I LOVE SHARKS

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 03:03:35 -0400

I LOVE SHARKS

WWYD.

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 02:52:37 -0400

im so confused with my life right now……

Question.

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 05:18:27 -0400

Q: If you and your boyfriend ever break up would you go back to girls and find a girlfriend?

A: If we ever break up I think i’m done with the whole relationship thing for awhile and gonna focus on my kids, school, and finding myself a career. When i think about breaking up my first thought is to crawl under a rock and die cause i would be lost without him.

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Fri, 20 Jul 2012 08:01:20 -0400

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Fri, 20 Jul 2012 07:27:24 -0400